Growing In Grace (The Rated R version)

Ok. Let me lay down the basic pit falls of a young man trying to do right. I pray everyday for strentgh to make each day the best I can. The wisdom to make the best decisions for the long run. But most importantly to understand that his will, our mission, our goals are greater than me. I give an all out effort to be who I am and honor God. However, tempation is a true b****. Sorry. I really had no other word for what has been happening lately. I remember when this school year started off, I got a lot of attention. I'm use to it so no big deal. The was the case when I got to school here and that was the case last year cause people seem to gravitate to me even if I'm not comfortable with that all the time. But this year started off with slick come on lines, seductive flirting, and young ladies trying to get me a position so they can call me boo. But somewhere the heat has been turned up, severely. It doens't matter the color. There have been attempts to scoop me by all thirty one flavors. I was once told if Satan had you or you were on a border line he wasn't coming after you but me...I'm trying to hold to God's unchanging hand. However, at the same time, these women have been trying to rub on me with their hands. Earlier this week, I got a call at 3 a.m. in the morning and the young lady said..."I'm horny, I'm on my way, what are you going to do about it?" I'm thinking nothing cow. I'm going back to bed, ten minutes later she is at my door. I'm like dang, can a young man sleep? Fortunately for me, she was drunk too and after she used my bathroom she layed down on my couch and passed out. I put a blanket over her and took my butt to bed. I'm not that type of guy. Well, then there was this week in class. I'm not into white girls but this one is good looking. After class we were just discussing a few things and before I knew it she was telling me about how she liked me and hadn't said anything all year and that I could get it anytime I wanted. Now deep down inside I was tempted. Just for the fact my former teammates were running women in and out of the dorm like drugs. Thats another reason room 211 stayed locked 90% of the time. lol. It's true. I know I've made my mistakes this year but I don't want to continue with the same problem. However, the more I resist the more the pressure is applied. This one girl waited by my door one night and on my way up a homegirl mine told me she had been there for over an hour. Imagine my concern. But strangely enough, the reason why I was hour late getting back to my place was due to an SGA meeting where I was approached my this beautiful Idian girl who is an engineering student. Just my luck, she likes hip-hop and tall handsome black guys from Florida. :-l Yeah. Anyway, thats where I almost fell cause she is Angelina Jolie sexy. Her and her wavy black hair, my goodness. I need a cold shower. Oh wait, then one of our junior senators shows up at my door Saturday. Now that wasn't strange but when she came in, I thought it was just to say hi. She asks to see my goods. Then she says she would show me hers first and drops her pants in front, and yes she had nice legs. I couldn't anything but look in amazement, then excuse myself from my place. Oh, side note to that, this same young lady who dropped her pants in front of me, well her boyfriend is cheating her, and strangely enough, this young lady who I met not too long ago who claims to like me so much is sleeping with that guy. Uh...yeah. Reason number three I don't do the random sex thing: STD's. Haven't had them, don't need them, don't want them. Oh, and then there is the cute New Orleans girl who lives down stairs. Then the two volleyball girls and the one female basketball player who isn't gay, the two sororities who have a handfull they have tried, and countless others. (Shakes head) If I was a nasty dude I'd be all over this situation. I wish I was making this stuff up but it has gotten out of hand. I definetly don't want of this attention like this but it is what it is I guess. I just can't participate. Thank God for that gym cause I'd be in trouble right now. Matter of fact, let me stop pretending I'm doing my homework and get this young lady out of my room. She is watching a movie but we were supposed to go to dinner. I guess I should enjoy V-Day. She bought me a card and some candy. Nice. However, I don't feel for her what I felt for Kenisha, but I am enjoying my time and it's been cool getting to know her better. Hopefully, she isn't trying to get my booty tonight. I just can't go that route. I'm trying. Pray for me. Peace.