Out of my mind...

Ok. So I'm a little more upset about this Kenisha thing than I want to admit. But I didn't thing I would take it as far as as I did. Dang. she was fine though. She said she wanted to comfort me and in a moment of weakness I wound up having sex with this young lady for no reason. Ok, I had a reason. I wanted to at the time. But I kinda, ok I do like her, and there was time and space. That doesn't make it right. I spent the last day of finals in my room with her doing all of the things I thought I liked. Unfortunately, it wasn't my wife, it wasn't my girlfriend. I just...did it. I promised myself this wouldn't happen. I've NEVER been the random sex kind. This isn't me. I've got to be out of my mind. Anyway, it's good to be at home. I've got a date too. Yeah. I hope you didn't think I wasn't gonna just sleep with the young lady and not get to know her better. Honestly, there is nothing I can do to gonna make me feel better about what I did. I'm still shaking my head but I gotta be stronger than this situation. Pray for me. '04 and rising. Now let me go get dressed. We are meeting in Mobile tonight. Peace.