I got your court date

Well, the 2nd semester is underway. I'm kinda tired this morning. I've gotten some replies to a semester email I send out to my family and friends, and for the record I guess I wanted her to say something. But at this point, I don't care. But this was the reply:

Why can't you say my name? You don't have to say anything to me in an underlying manner. I understand that I made it this way, but I have apologized. I hope that you have forgiven me because it was sincere. Not just pretty people do ugly things, everyone does. I hope Moochiepie Face calls you Binky. If not, she doesn't see the stars in your eyes when she looks into them. Not trying to hate because I'm not jealous. I am where I need to be. Just thought you should know why I called you that. I'm prepared to make a court date in March because b-ball season will be over then. You let me know when. I hope life is grand for you. Take care!!!!

Nisha



LOL! First of all, who said I would make a "court date" with you. I didn't want to talk to you in January, and I don't want to talk to you now. My life doesn't stop, slow down, or even blink because you asked. It's not gonna happen. IF this conversation takes place, it will happen on my time and my terms. I guess the problem is that you are spoiled by all the guys who have been in your life doing exactly what you want. Come on, you should know better, it's not even an ego thing, but I don't get down like that. I'm not typical, so don't play me like I am. Do I sound frustated? I just want to close the door and lay down.

Let's be honest. I haven't slept in days, my work load is TOO much (15 credit hours and 3 jobs), my personal life in hot topic on campus, I'm tired, and to make it worse I've started drinking. I was hoping it would help me get to sleep. But it doesn't help that much. It's nothing heavy. Just a Smirnoff Ice, but drinking is not my style. God help me, I just need to sleep and have some me time. I don't know how to handle this situation is really bothering me. . So this is what I'm gonna do. Go to bed, sleep, or at least try, and remain calm. Thank you Lord for my struggles because I know you're molding me into something great. This too shall pass.