So she got her court date...

I know right. I have got to working on this saying no thing. I needed a quiet place to study so I went to the library. Top floor middle table, by the window. No one is ever up there. Anyway, to my surprise she showed up. I figured it would have been too cold for her to come out that day. But please believe I was about to be the ultimate jerk about it all. She walked around for a minute looking through the books while I finished writing a paper for class. Then she sat down to talk. Honestly, I felt a little uncomfortable with myself at the moment. I just kept thinking about how she handle things, and that I was even allowing her the opportunity to even speak to me. Maybe she doesn't know how I hard I took it, but despite her reasons at the moment, the whole thing at very least was fucked up. Anyway, here we are and here we go out the door. She took me to the park. By the way, which is against the law in Mobile County to be in a public park after sunset. Well, we parked, walked for a minute, and then sat down on a bench. I didn't let her get close to me or look me in the eye. But as she explained what happened, I got a little more up tight and was really ready to go. I don't think she understands, these things aren't supposed to happen to me, but thats why we are human. It happens. However, I warmed up in the conversation when she told me this is where she would come to think about me. The countless afternoons when she wanted to see me, talk to me, be with me. I was kinda flattered. But it didn't change how I felt. I just listened...

But when we got in the car, I fired off my mouth like a cold hearted bully. For the first time I think I didn't show any compassion. Then again, I had made up in my mind stealing her food from Smokey Bones from the back seat and seeing what she had to say about it. I wound up giving it to Kirkland when we got back, cause I knew he was hungry, and I wanted Kenisha to say something crazy. Like I said, I was trying to be a jerk. Anyway, I'll see where it goes from here. I was surprised this night happened cause I wanted to be past this by now. Some how she kinda knows me. . So how did the night end? She told me loved me...Then she kissed me. She kissed me like she had been wanting to do that all night. Dang. Goodnight.