In need of a song for the moment

11:02PM - These games we play...
This reminds me of that 702 song called Get It Together. I don't really want to stay, I don't really want to go. Wait...I do want to go. It's thats that whole thing of leaving what you familair with. But do I stay where I am and learn how to be okay or content with this situation. We could work things out and it would be alright, but why be miserable? I can't settle for mediocrity. I wish I had a song for this one. 702 is close, but not really where I am. Honestly, I've been in this relationship months on months way too long. I don't trully know what being in love is...but I know this isn't it at all. So how do you say goodbye in these situations? You have all the reasons in the world to go, but that small string of attraction, that string of familiarity, and that small string of being in love with the thought of being in love. Then at some point, someone comes along and changes your whole world. You know...the one with that "It." That thing that makes them the one. It blurs all the thoughts of "your first", your high school sweetheart, that one in college that never quite worked out, and that one that you're comfortable with but not in love with. Then when you finally meet them, you're stuck on those little strings, but the problem is that they are not attached to your body, they are on your heart. And it doesn't hurt that you can't get away...It hurts you can't get to that one. I've gotta cut these strings from my heart before she gets here. But how? Something has to give. I need to be delivered out of Egypt and guided through the wilderness.

Bottom line...the difference of what Audra is and what the one should/will be is the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone. I have no earthly idea who she is, I haven''t even met her. But God has placed her in my heart and she is already changing me. My speech and actions are making changes. I see the man, lover, and friend I want to be, free from all boundaries. So whoever you are, I want to thank you in advance.