Where you at?

Of all my friends in the world, one of the easiet ones to talk to is Ashley. She is such a sweetheart, but just like any friendship/relationship in life, distractions come about and people fall apart. This is one friend I trully don't want to lose because of life's hustle. I wish I had time to just shoot the breeze with her, cause she is just that cool, but we shall see exactly where I stand by the summer. I think I am fading to the back of her mind cause in the last few weeks of her journal entries my name is no where to be found. Hmmmm. I wonder what nappy head dude has her attention these days. Anyway, if that is the case or not she is still a good friend, hopefully I'll hear from her soon...

mood:amused

As you can see it has been days upon days missing from my journal, but if you can keep up you know why. Today is a pretty descent day. So I'm not going to complain about anything. I'm hanging in there with this school thing which is turning out to be the longest 5 years of my life. Well officially 5 this summer. I figure by the time I graduate I will have 150 credits and they still might not let me leave. Anyway, I guess everything else is good. So what more can I say? Oh yeah...what a poor attempt to blow Shon off like she isn't in the back of my mind. She called Thursday morning right after my first class going on about how much she misses me and she dreams aboout me every night. Now what makes this conversation odd is the fact that she is on her honeymoon in the...Uh...I can't spell, but I think it is Poconose. (Speak and spell) Yeah. Anyway, too make the conversation even more interesting lets throw in the segment of the conversation:

Shon: I really wanted to hear your voice...
Me: Really? Why is that?
Shon: Cause I miss you and I dream about you every night.

(Pause) You're dreaming about another man while you're on your honey moon. Uh. Okay... (Play)

Me: Hmmmmm....Should I ask?
Shon: I'll tell you now.
Me: Naw. Save it until you get back.
Shon: Uh...Okay. Yeah but it don't look good for home team.
Me: Who me?
Shon: No. Him.

(Pause) Two thoughts here. One, wouldn't it be great if we could TIVO life? Two, does this sound like someone who should have gotten married at all or just to this guy? Uh...Okay. (Play)

Me: Why you say that?
Shon: Well...
Me: Nevermind. Save it until you get back. And aren't you using his phone to call me?
Shon: Yeah. I hope he doesn't scan over his phone bill.
Me: Ya think?Shon: Well, I gotta get out of the car, we are headed to Florida.
Me: I don't want to know that.
Shon: No. I want you to know everything.
Me: Uh...yeah. Shon: Okay?
Me: I guess?
Shon: Well I need to go. I'll see you in a couple of days. I miss you.
Me: Huh?
Shon: I said I miss you. Now I have to go. Okay? I'll see you when I get back.
Me: Huh?
Shon: Bye boy...
Me: Huh?
Shon: Say bye.
Me: Oh. Uh...bye.

So...would anyone like to comment on the fact that she called me on her honeymoon several times and has been thinking of me? Anybody? You? How about you in the back? Up front? Yes you ma'am...
Young lady: Well I think...
Me: (Rock like voice) IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT TOU THINK!

LOL! I'm just playing cause you know the whole idea of this all went straight to my head. Yeah, I'm officially big sexy and can't nobody tell me different for the next 72 hours. Holla at cha boy. Peace.

You don't have to...

Mood:confused

If I know what to say, or if I knew what to feel. I would say it right now. But I trully don't know what to think at this moment...Shon, is getting married today to a man that she cares about, but is not in love with. Who is she in love with? She is in love with me. Well, we met up at the park around 2:00 a.m., and what was supposed to be a 20 minute meeting or chill time, turned into an 2 hour emotional scence straight out of a Oscar winning movie. Hmmmmmm. Would I ever marry anyone cause that is what everyone expected me to do, even though in my heart of heart's I'm in love with someone else? I don't know. But a lady in the cafe that is really cool with me, told me that she was in the exact same situation many years ago and has been unhappy since. She is still married and in love with another man from nearly 20 years ago. So why does this even happen. In the end, today I feel...

alone, lost, and hurt.

This is easily the worst day of my life.

Text messages

I got a text message that says:

Just wanted 2 let you know you know that I have carpet burns on my butt.

Wow. Do I need to get into detail on this one. Sometimes passion just takes you away right were you stand. Or where you sit. Or where you fall down in this case. Love is a hell of a drug.

Lord help me...

If there was any other time that I needed guidance, then it is trully now. With all that I have been through since I stepped on this campus two years ago, I am trully frustrated. However, I won't give up. I have faith in you Lord and whatever reason you have me here, please give me the strength to endure and overcome. I can't do this alone and forgive me for ever trying. It's because of you, that I am here, it's because of you, I am who I am. For that I am trully greatful and I put none before you. Please show me the way and I will follow...

Fat nigga tendancies

Yes, you read it right. It's official, I have to soul of a 300 pound that just loves to eat. I know I shouldn't say this around my the time of my Saviour's birthday, but some food is just as good as sex. I had some fried turkey today and I just ate and went to sleep. When I woke up I felt like I had been through a marathon of love making. Nobody could say anything to mess that moment up for me. I hope I'm not addicted to food. And if I was, SO WHAT! I work out so it gets put to use, but by the time I get back to Florida, I will have gained a few pounds, oh well. But you know you got a problem when other hungry fat dudes look at you and go "Where are you putting all that?" My grandmother use to tell me that I had hollow legs. And it seems like it sometimes. Anyway, I'm about to get on this seafood. Merry Christmas...bitches.

100 and something

Before I get started I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my homegirl, my ace, and one of my best friends...MY MAMA. Actually it's Happy Belated Birthday cause it was yesterday. I just forgot to write about it yesterday. Anyway, here is a quick run down of me in a survey:

100 Things About Me

1. I miss seeing the setting sun in California.
2. I'm an only child.
3. My hometown is Pensacola, FL.
4. I was 12 years old the first time I dunked.
5. I was always the tallest kid in school until I got to high school.
6. I'm 6'5, 6'6 on a good day.
7. I've always had a thing for Delta's.
8. I'm not sure if I have ever been trully in love, but I'm waiting on her.
9. I'm allergic to bullshyt.
10. I'm young, black, male, and gifted with no criminal record.
11. I just started eating fish about 4 years and I don't like Salmon.
12. My favorite fruit is grapefruit.
13. My major is Communications.
14. I've been out the country once, Mexico Summer '03
15. Floetry's song "Say Yes" gets me a little warm.
16. I can't sing, but I still try.
17. I want to visit New York City.
18. I have a secret and shoe obession.
19. A good pen makes me feel smart and creative.
20. I love taking naps.
21. I walk with a slight limp because of an broken ankle.
22. I love black women, I can't wait to meet her.
23. I like to make up slang words. (Tina Knowles Original, Brofessional)
24. I love to read.
25. I am addicted to laughter.
26. I would rather go to a game than watch it on tv.
27. No matter the intensity, I usually keep my feelings to myself.
28. My biggest fear is not living up to my potential.
29. I wish I still had my fro.
30. I use fabric softners sheets in my vents to keep my place smelling clean.
31. I think kissing is an extremely intimate act.
32. One day I want kids.
33. I'm not scared of commitment. I think. Maybe.
34. I can start an conversation with anyone.
35. I love Cartier Colonge.
36. I think I was born too early.
37. I'm on a one year contract.
38. I have a low tolernace for drama.
39. I've never said "I love you" first.
40. I can count my number of "friends" on one hand.
41. I've been on one cruise.
42. I love the beach.
43. I voted...for Sen. Kerry in the Presidential election :-(
44. I'm scared of snakes.
45. Sometimes my mind goes in 100 directions at once.
46. I've never experienced stage fright.
47. I was recruited by D-1 schools for basketball but D-2 schools for track.
48. My mother thinks I should've majored in Computer Engineering.
49. I'm scared of clowns.
50. I love track and field. (Sexy Marion Jones...yeah.)
51. I over study till my head hurts.
52. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to projects.
53. I don't trust many people.
54. I adore my baby cousins.
55. I'm very sensitive to medication.
56. No girlfriend of mine father has ever like me.
57. My favorite movie is Coming To America.
58. I dislike all the black shows on UPN.
59. I want to write a best seller book.
60. I love to shop.
61. I love to work.
62. I love home cooked meals.
63. Sometimes I say things just to see the expression on people's faces.
64. I admire people who are quietly intellectual.
65. I write best in the middle of the night.
66. I smoked a real Cuban cigar once.
67. Gabrille Union is SO SEXY to me.
68. I get migranies.
69. I can impersonate many people.
70. I watch too much Chappelle Show.
71. You tell me a secret, you'll never here it again.
72. I love to recieve letters.
73. Once I set my mind on something, I go get it...period.
74. I talk to myself, quite a bit, but I don't answer myself
75. Sometimes I listen to John Coltrane to go to sleep.
76. I am on a constant quest for knowledge.
77. I can't spell out loud.
78. I do almost everything left-handed except write.
79. Sometimes, I don't want to pay my bills.
80. I've broken every watch I've ever owned.
81. I believe sex is a drug, but when I get married I wanna get high in my wife's love. lol.
82. I embarass real easy.
83. I'm sometimes mean to people that are close to me.
84. I wear size 14 shoes.
85. My big toe is not the longest toe on my feet.
86. I'm still waiting on "her", whoever she may be.
87. My printed handwriting is pretty good for a man.
88. Large groups of strangers make me nervous.
89. I'm too nice sometimes.
90. I'm too mean sometimes.
91. I'm undecided on the concept of soulmates.
92. But I am a romantic.
93. I am my own worst critic.
94. I love to be underestimated.
95. I believe you should always be able to laugh at yourself.
96. I grind my teeth in my sleep.
97. I love to be kissed on my ear lobe.
98. I always mispell Wensday...Wednesday.
99. Chest hair on a woman is my biggest turn off.
100. I love having a realtionship with God.

We have go to do better than this...

Why does your birthday have to be a couple of days before Christmas? I love you and all, but as you've gotten older you gifts have gotten a little more exspensive. I don't know. Either way, happy birthday mama. I'd pass out a few birthday lics, but black folks know the rules. You don't put your hands on your mama. Not just that, I'm afraid you can still whip my ass. You think I'm lifting all these weights for my health? Uh...no. One day. Me and you buddy. You can't punk me all your life. I'm just playing. Happy Birthday.

1 more day

I got one more day of work before I can get down the road to Pensacola, and we can get on the road and get to North Carolina. I'm so happy. Not really. I just though of the possibilty of severe cold weather and I just got nervous. I don't see how some people do the cold weather, snow, and just those freezing temps. There is so much I like doing, especially running, that requires being outside. If I move up north I am going to have to have a gym in my house. Anyway, I am picking out what I want to wear. You know I gotta get fly. It was just me and my mom going at first, but we rented an SUV and my grandmother, Uncle, and cousin are going too. This will be interesting. At least all the snoring keeps me awake while I drive. I know it will be me and my Uncle Sidney doing the bulk, if not all, of the driving. But it won't be too bad. I'm gonna get some music and hopefully all will be cool. Well, thats it for me. I need to be about this business.

Cater 2 Me

Last night was good. It's nice to be pampered for a minute. A little convo, a little cheesecake, a good brush through your hair. It was good. I can't say anything more than that at the moment. You never know who is reading this. lol! I'm off today so I can relax. Stunt on the couch and then go work out. HI ASHLEY!

Sunday Evening Hoops

Growing up I remember every single Sunday, except for those winter months, was spent playing basketball after church. Well, just about all of them. You know of course you weren't allowed out the house those days when you had to go back to evening service for a program, like Easter or something. Anyway, since injuries have put me down, I try to watch as much as possible. So I went to our game this afternoon. I gotta admit the team was balling today, but they still have a way to go. The played hard againist Miss. St, but they got UAB, and FSU coming up soon. Those have the potential to be ugly if they are not on top of thier games. Anyway, I sat with Keke and Kenya during the game. I know that is a sight a lot of people haven't seen in a minute. It's crazy, when I first got to South I thought she had a little extra attitude. She always looked like she was in a bad mood, but it wasn't long before Keke and I crossed paths. We became good friends over the past year. Her daughter Kenya is cool, and it was real funny when President Moulton's wife thought Kenya was my child. So while we are in the President's luxury box, we acted like father and daughter the entire night. It was so funny that Keke left and see how I could handle a child on my own. I did a good job. Well...at least thats what all the people around me said. Even our SGA president Clay says "I didn't know you had a kid...?" And just give him that look like, I don't dummy. I guess we are good friends if you feel like you can leave your child with me. Especially when you know I fight kids. No...For real I do. You're child is acting up and you leave them with me, there is a good chance I'll put them in a head lock. Anyway, where was I? Oh basketball. Best game ever. It has done a lot for my life. But not as much as my God who gave me the talent and knowledge to play the game. So when I say I love basketball, it's another way I'm saying I love the Lord. When I say basketball has done a lot for me, I'm giving God his praise. So to me, basketball is more than a game, it was a bride to relationship with my creator.

Hold my mule.

My neck...My back, my neck and my back! Naw, they feel better. I got to sleep today. And I'm so happy. I'm on this Law study guide now, so this is it for the night. I'm just glad I got some rest. Holla.

I can't sleep

So I laid down in the bed about 2, then 3 came, the 4, then 5 a.m.! Last thing I know it was about 5:30 and the second episode of Mama' Family was coming on. So it was closer to 6 a.m. when I fell asleep. But the crazy thing is Kenisha called at 6:45 to tell me something, what is was I don't remember. Then I went back to sleep just to hear my alarm at 8. I was sick out of my mind all day for the lack of sleep. I was hurting. I was burned out at one point I was so tired. School and finals are not gonna hold me down. I'm not gonna get stressed. I get the next day off for dead day so I can sleep tonight. Anyway, I figured a few things out in all that time I couldn't sleep and the tv was on. First, the entire cast of Full House needs to be dragged out into the street and beaten. I can't believe America was in love with that show for so many years. It's pointless, it's dull, and full of Sesame Street lessons. Now if that had been black folks on Full House, there would have been lessons learned, but there would have been some butts whipped in that house. Then there would be a Big Mama in the house too, and she would have whooped some behinds as well. Also, The Tanners never went to church either. Not once. Even the Winslows from Family Matters went to church sometimes. But then again, you live next door to Steve Urkel you need to go to church. Anyway, the lack of sleep has me talking silly. By the time I get back up I should feel better. Hopefully, this feeling will pass. Gotta lay down. Peace.

On the run

Monday, Monday, Monday. What is it that I don't like about this day? I'm not even stressing it right now. I gotta get on this work for this debate on Wensday so I gotta cut this extra short. Plus I want to get to the gym if I can. Holla.

I'm rich!

Before I go on, I'd like to take the time to put my disclaimer on this entry.

The following entry resulted from an idea between two friends, and friends only. This entry does not reflect my values on dating, love, sex, or relationships in regardless to my spiritual background. It is soley based for the purpose of entertainment. Any conclusions drawn by the reader are more than likely to be unfounded and useless. Thank you.

Over the Thanksgiving Break, my friend Ashley (from Freedom School in STL) and I decided that we would be each other's "special someone", since neither of us has an official significant other. We both received plenty of well-wishes and "Happy Thanksgivings", but none from that one person that we can claim as our "own". So we signed a temporary contract that was supposed to last through Sunday that we would function as temporary significant others. Well, after plenty of negotiation, we extended the contract for a year, full benefits and exclusive rights to each other as a franchise. Can you tell that we are a little crazy? I sound like an agent. Well here are the details:

Her contract:
* 1 year, 5.5 million, 2.1 million signing bonus
* private office
* guaranteed "quality" booty at LEAST twice a week
* exclusive rights
* PDA until 35 days before my contract expires (gotta seem approachable to those interested in signing me for next season)
* Quality Time
* One mention in the blog per week

My contract: * 1 year, 5 million, 1 million signing bonus
* Personal assistant available from 7am to 9pm
* Quality booty agreement, plus an added "love for the sake of loving" clause. (Basically, entitlement to more booty if need be)
* added trust, friendship and honesty clauses
* exclusive rights
* less attitude from her
* PDA agreement
* one mention in the blog per week
* Quality Time
* brownies on my birthday

As you can see, we are crazy. I'm glad that nut is in my life though. But wouldn't it be great if relationships could come with a contract like athletes? That way, everyone would know what was expected of them and if anybody messed up, you can drop them, have them return your investments and signing bonuses (whether it be time, money, clothes, love, trust...etc) and go about your business. Perhaps prenuptial are similar but they are not in depth enough and only in effect for married couples. I bet if dating couples had to sign a one year agreement and were re-signed based on performance, fools wouldn't act so crazy. At the very least, you could squeeze 3 months of good behavior out before they know their contract is winding down. Yeah, I think this is a good idea. So any young ladies that are interested have to now speak to my agent, as I am a signed young man. This is great, I can defer all offers to my agent. Just don't ask me who my agent is because I'm not sure I know. But I am happy with my decision to sign with Ashley and I think we will have a successful year together.

Child proof caps

I woke up around 1:30, and of course I got left. And I didn't feel so bad about that, but er'bdoy came home and left again before I woke up. No one said anything. Half of the folks in the house didn't know I stayed there that night and the other half thought I was gone already. But then again, I was the last person to go to sleep, I was in the back room, and I parked my car out of sight. Oh well. Other than this migraine I had today, it was a good day. I ran into my Uncle Chris at the barber shop, that's my father's brother, and we talked for a minute but my head was still thumping and I fell asleep in the next chair when he stopped talking. I told him I was gonna come to the house since everybody was on home. Anyway, my head is still a little numb so I am gonna lay down. Yeah...

Next time just leave me there...

I WAS SO TIRED TODAY. I feel asleep while checking my answers on a test. That's real. I'm not even bout to be on here long. I was feeling low on energy the day before, but dang homie. I was tempted to skip every class today in attempt to get some rest. Anyway...Holla at cha boy. I'm even too tired to eat. Holla.

Running on E

Oh baby. I wish I had some energy today. I've been fatigued for a minute. I know part of the problem is I missed my morning workout throwing my body off, and I haven't been drinking enough water. I had to drag myself out the bed, drag myself to class, drag myself to the gym. Now I gotta drag myself to IHOP and study. I really need to get on it too. No big test, just need to stay up, stay ready. Ya know? Anyway, nothing serious to report. I feel some energy coming back just thinking about IHOP. lol. It's time to get my grub on. It's ya boy!

And when I leave...Come together like butt cheeks!

mood: blah
music: Why Does (112)

Today was just another day. Still incredibly stiff. Played over at Murphy today. We won. No big deal. I had a philly cheesesteak before I went to play ball today. Lets say I still don't feel good. That one got me. Anyway, it was cool cause I got the chance to chill with my homeboys today. Haven't done that in a minute. But tomorrow starts a new week. I'm gonna get on this running thing hard again. Hopefully, I can stay on there for a entire hour. I enjoy working out and once the break is over, I'd like to be back in playing shape. But I have to drink more water and stretch. It would be nice if KJ came through and helped me with that strecthing thing. I got a few new strecthes from her squad's warm ups that helped me a lot. Anyway, I watched The Day After Tomorrow on dvd last night, that was crazy. Looking at it from an academic stand point, that whole thing blew me cause of Dr. Sebastian's class. Matter of fact we watched a video on tornado's during lecture, and it was crazy too. This lady was like..."It picked me up and a cow flew by me...", so of course I laughed. Oh well. I talked to a couple of people from Jersey Freedom School this weekend. Talked to one from Kansas City too, hmmmmmm, wonder when I will talk to one from Mobile where I worked. I really didn't feel like I fit in with that group. I was the only intern who was not from Alabama. Then everybody kinda hung our knew each other before they got there. Half of them went to high school together. Brenton and I were cool, but for the most part I still felt left out. Even though I knew 3 of the pople before I got there. Er'body was aiight for the most part, I didn't get along with one person in particalr, but all of that will be told in due time. Anyway, it's time to make that turn to the bed. Tomorrow will be a good one...Watch the kid.

Me from A to Z

Me from A TO Z...?

Let's see how long these last.

A - Age: Don't worry about it.
B - Best Friend: Currently accepting applications.
C - Choice of Meat: Shrimp
D - Dream Date: Whatever Gabrille Union wants to do.
E - Exciting Adventure: Driving cross country.
F - Favorite Food: Cabbage and macaroni and cheese.
G - Greatest Accomplishment: Got some things, not ready to answer yet.
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: Too many to name. God has been good to me.
I - Interests: Too many to name. But I love to read in my spare time.
J - Joke: I want some affection! It's an inside joke.
K - Kool-Aid: GRAPE! Is there any other?
L - Love: Read on further in my journal.
M - Most Valued possession: My peace of mind.
N - Name: Everett Douglas
O - Outfit You Love: Black State Property Hoodie and White Air Force 1's
P - Pizza Toppings: Pineapple
Q - Question Asked To You the Most: How tall are you?
R - Radio Station: 93 WBLX
S - Sport: Basketball, or course.
T - Television Show: Chappelle Show, I'm rich biatch!
U - Umbrella in the rain?: Yep. But it's fun to plan in the rain sometimes.
V - Video: Eminem - Mosh
W - Winter: Better than these hot ass southern summers.
X - X-rays recently?: Knee
Y - Year Born: 198something
Z - Zodiac Sign: ARIES! The 1st sign.