Incomplete Thoughts...

Started (5/20/07)

For like three weeks now I've been trying to finish this blog. For three weeks now, I've been having this feeling. For three weeks now, I've felt sorrow. For 3 weeks now, I've learned to let it go. It's all in God's hands. It's all in God's plan. So it's not good bye to my cousin Evan and Uncle Levon, it's only a see you later. If it be many many years from now or by the God coming to carry us away in The Rapture, I'll see you one day. But now I'll hold on to our memories. You're physically gone but your presence is always felt. Your smiles are always warmth to a gloomy day. Evan was only 15 months old and Levon 70 years young, but both family members we loved dearly. So here is my incomplete thought for you both. I'll never forget this day either. After Evan passed there was to be a wake or family hour of some sort and I left work to show my support to my family. However, without notice the time was changed for later in the evening. While trying to get more information on the baby, I turned around to the board of upcoming services of people at Joe Morris Funeral Home. And there it was...

Mr. Levon Simpson

I wasn't sure who I was crying for at that moment. One family in the front of the funeral home and one in the back. I think it hurt more because of the way I found out. Evan's passing made me ponder the book of James in The Bible. Mr. Simp had been ill for some time and I had myself prepared but why lie, it hurt. It wasn't enough time to finish mourning one to the other. Evan was layed to rest on the 12th of May and Uncle Levon on the 17th. But now that the time has passed, I've confirmed a few things in my heart. God will not put more on us than we can bare, our testimonys don't come without a test. Tell your family members often that you love them, because you don't know when you will be able to say it again until God calls us all home on that day. Black people...please don't let funerals double as family reunions. See your family and let your childern interact with one another. It's important for us to know one another outside of a mourning period. And lastly, Joy does come in the mourning/morning. If you don't get that one, shoot me an email and we can talk about it. Thought complete. (6/3/07)