It's this one thing...

I'm getting a little ahead of myself in the list of confessions, but it's something about you. I can't quite understand it, nor do I know if it is for me to understand. It's just that 1 thing...

You...

*get on my nerves...
*are just as spoiled as me...
*always have to have your way...
*always have to have the last word...
*always swear you are so fly...
*scare me when you drive...
*are so stubborn at times...

You...
*get on my nerves, just so I can pick a fight with you, so we can "make up"...
*are just as spoiled as me, so you understand my way of thinking...
*always have to have your way, cause you help me see more than one point of veiw...
*always have to have the last word, and it's always how much you love me...
*always swear you're so fly, but you are, and I love it...
*scare me when you drive, but I trust you with my life...
*are so stubborn at times, because you expect nothing but the best from me...

"YOU" said it best, I adore your strengths, but I love your weakness. Cause it's in the times I want to be upset with you, the times I want to fuss with you, it's when I realize I love you the most. Everything about you, from top to bottom is so soulful. So much of me is you. So much of you is me. It's bad enough I can't stay mad at you longer than 20 minutes, but being mad at you is like being mad at myself. Because all is forgiven in the softness in your voice even before we embrace, and it is all forgotten once my lips touch your forehead as we hold one another. So today you get to have the last word...

#5

#5
One of my rules is never start a relationship with someone you meet in the club. But since I met you in the parking lot, technically you were outside of the club. My very first night out on the town found me in Atlanta GA, out with my cousin's nephew who was real cool. He actually saw you and your friends first, but when I eyes met, our introduction was the only one that mattered that night. I think we were a perfect pair at an imperfect time in our lives. You the pre-med student at Duke, me the aspiring athlete not sure what direction I wanted to go. But we both found our way through life, even though it was without each other. I'm glad that we stayed friends over the years even though I couldn't take you to your ball. I really wanted to be there, but thanks to #2, I got sick and couldn't make it. I hope whoever you choose to date or marry or whatever your case maybe, I hope he recognizes your inner beauty as well our physical being. Cause Lord knows your being is ooooooowheeeeee. With a body like that you know you can stop traffic. Wow. Let me quiet. Anyway, the best thing we both got out of this was a great friendship. Thanks for being there for me even in my hardtimes, especially when you had those feelings for me. I wish more young ladies were just like you. Matter of fact, if I have a daughter that turns out as half as well as you, then I will have done a great job as a father. I pray for nothing but the best for you, and know that you always have a friend in me.

America's Next Top Model? Uh...Okay.

So you never though about being a model, and all out of the someone say hey you have what it takes. You have that look. And if you're me, your only respone is, uh...okay. I mean I've heard people say that I should be in the field. Other models have told me that I said I should do it. But it never crossed my mind. I guess sports and music have been such a big part of my life that I have never gave it a second thought. Well, to make a long story short I did my first portfolio and shoot this week in North Carolina. It wasnt that bad. It was just the driving that I had to do that really bothered me. I'm so tired. So so tired. lol! Anyway. I've stopped in Atlanta for the day on my way back and I'm here with my cousin Tonya hanging out for the moment. I like her house, but I don't think I like Atlanta anymore. I'm here so much that I know my way around the city and the long drives are very short to me. I was all downtown chilling with some my friends of mine before I came to her house in Morrow. I know right. Those are worlds away, but it's nothing to drive anymore. I can handle the big city traffic too. I thought about doing an Uncle Fred and cross six lanes and hit an off ramp doing about twenty over the speed limit. Anyway, I'm tired and the NBA playoffs are on. So win or go home...

2 Things.

There is always a first and second option of things you would like to see or you would like to happen. So here is my Noah style depth chart of life.

2 people I wish would stoping singing:
a. Ashanti
b. Brittany Spears

2 people who need to be bitched slapped:
a. Kobe Bryant
b. Cassidy for the "Big" line in I'm a Hustla

2 people who need to come back and make a album:
a. Lauryn Hill
b. Jodeci

2 people who don't need to make anymore albums:
a. Bow Wow
b. Tupac (You got too many for me to buy. You ain't dead nigga!)

2 people who need to be drug out into the street and shot:
a. The record executive that convinced Akon to sing "I'm so lonely"
b. The director that convinced Carmelo Anthony's fat ass to take off his shirt in that "Got Milk commercial. Playboy, you can afford a 4 k diamond engagment ring, but you can't buy an ab machine? Bowflex? Something?

2 reasons you wish Bush was out of office:
a. The gas prices
b. Don't you miss Clinton too? 6 years and no drama. We gonna get GW some hoes.

2 people who are sexy and talented and don't get enough credit:
a. Sanaa Lathan
b. Jaquie Reid

2 people I don't care if I ever see them on TV again:
a. Jessica Simpson
b. Ashlee Simpson

2 people that need to pay their child support:
a. Every nigga in the NFL
b. Every nigga in the NBA

2 people we all admire but you had to laugh at their ass when they got caught up:
a. Micheal Vick
b. Ron Mexico (Oh shyt! That's Micheal Vick too.)
~If the NFL can sponsor Cialis, they can do Valtrex too.~

2 people who make too much money and need to shut the f*** up:
a. Terrell Owens
b. Latrell Spreewell

2 people who need to stop denying that don't use drugs:
a. Faith Evans
b. Mark McQuire

2 extremely overrarted DJ's:
a. DJ Clue (I wouldn't let that nigga mix my pancake batter, let alone my cd.)
b. Funkmaster Flex (lost respect when you dissed Nelly, then rode his nuts when he hit big.)

2 reasons we all regret not going to an HBCU's:
a. That special day when you decide you dislike all white people. (except Jessica Alba)
b. your 2.5 gpa you struggled to get, when it it would be a 3.25 or better with the HBCU care and support you don't get at White Folks University.

2 people who can get it from me today:
a. Amerie
b. Gabrille Union

2 people who wish Johnny Cochran wasn't dead:
a. Micheal Jackson
b. R. Kelly

2 people who are going to jail real soon:
a. Micheal Jackson
b. R. Kelly

2 white people I'd just love to slap if I got the chance:
a. Bill O'Reilly
b. Jessica Alba, but on the ass

2 reasons to stay up and watch Uncut:
a. Tip Drill
b. Disco Inferno

2 reasons they should pay college athletes:
a. They're getting money under the table anyway.
b. They not learning, so you might as well pay them.

2 reasons they need to hurry up with season 3 of Chapelle Show:
a. I've watched season 1 one DVD too many times
b. I've sean everything on season 2 over and over agin on tv

2 couples that need to get a divorce:
a. Bobby and Whitney
b. Bobby and his pipe

2 cell phone companies who's bills look like car notes:
a. Cingular
b. Verizon

2 people always overdressed for every occassion:
a. Ghostface Killa
b. Steve Harvey

2 preachers who look like they still hang out in the club:
a. Creflo Dollar
b. Casey Price Jr.

2 people I'd love to hit with a bottle for being lame:
a. Mr. Fonsworth Bently
b. AJ

2 of the best girlfriends I've had so far:
a. Kenisha
b. Elizabeth

2 clothing times that never get old:
a. Air Force 1's
b. Air Jordans

2 words:
I'm gone.

IRS and #4

Tax time has come and gone again, and of course I waited until the last minute. But this year it was not my intention to do so. I actually had everything together, with the execption of one W-2 form that needed to be reprinted. I figured I would have had it back by now, but somehow I let 2 motnhs slip by and didn't get it done until today. How? I have no idea. But a refund is due and the money can be used for a lot of different things going on right now. Anyway, as I was looking aat my W-2 forms, I realized one of these jobs snacthed about 6 c-notes about my check. And that was just a summer job. I felt like I was 16 and getting my first check...Who the hell is FICA? And why didn't he ask to get for the money? And social security? Why am I giving money to that? Because at our current stae in America it won't exist by the time I retire to get it. Can I just pick an old person at random and give them the money myself? Better yet, let me just give it to my grandmother and cut out the middle man. You know some of this money is burned up in administration anyway. Oh well. The gub'ment has pulled that Rick James on my check again...

~I'm Uncle Sam bitch...show me your titty's!~

In my continuation of my series of confessions of things, keep in mind that the first handful of people are ex-girlfriends, and as I write, I realize there are some people in my life I should have just cussed out. Now with that being said, I present number...

4. You fake, over sensitive, pretenious, over emotional drama queen. But I mean that in a nice way. I hate that so many people percieved you as something special. What was so impressive about that is made #3 guzzle hater aid, and every young nigga jealous of me. I trully don't get it. But I will give you the fact that you were very supportive of my athletic endeavors...but, then there was your jealousy, your nagging, your tendancy to start fights. But it was so funny set against the back drop that everyone thought you were so perfect. Ha. I'm glad Ms. D put me on game and kept me safe from your tirads. So sad that you were that cute and that dangerous. Whats even funnier that your father threatned to put me in jail if I put my hands on you during prom. Let the truth be told, he should have threw you under the jail. At your pace we barely made it to dinner that night. This one I can trully walk away and say this one had nothing to do with me. 2 words..seek help.

#3

~Born sinner. Consistent award winner. Ballin' repeatedly. Highlights on Sports Center. Cause in my life there is only one rule...

I will not lose.~

3. I thought it would be nice to mention, since above all else you were the very first offical girlfriend. I guess your presence explains this thing about me an older women. Why lie? You were cool, well, until you started flippin' out and going through your "I'm a rebel and a preacher's kid phase wildn' out phase" that caused you to try and drag me down that path with you. Sorry, if you had tried it during my first or second year of college then I might have joined you. But we grew up and apart from one another. No big deal. I'm glad that we still speak and you're happy, well appear to be happy in your marriage with ALL of your kids. And congratulations that someone took your crown as the craziest girlfriend ever. You got to see that first hand. I wish you would have told me earlier. Oh...wait. It's another Usher confession time...When you tried to get my booty, I didn't want to cause you were under the impression you would be my first. And I kinda felt bad. Sorry. But while you were trying to be so fast, you didn't give me the chance to tell you I had done that before. It was a nice try though. I can't believe I made it out of high school still a virgin though, for the simple fact I dated you. Crazy. But then again, I had a year and a summer to get my act together and while you was trying to put whip cream on me, I had already been to the Candy Shop, whoooooaaaa. Oh well. I can't say much bad about you. It was a matter of too much too soon. But we were always fly together and the center of everyone's attention. Hopefully, one day everyone will give up the notion of us getting back together. I mean it's been 6, maybe 7 years now, and you have been married for 5, the number of years I've been in college. Holla at the kid, who grew up into one fly young man.

#2

OKAY! I'm reloaded!

2. The sad thing is that #1 is everything you could never be. Damn, you got on my nerves. How we stayed together for 5 years is a mystery. When you would do and say stupid things I would want to cuss your mother out and ask her what did she tell you over the years that made you so stupid. I don't believe in hitting a woman, but when we got back together when I moved closer to home and you admitted trying to get pregnant by me to keep me, I wanted to shake the hell out of you. But hey, I'm not violent. I think when you spread those rumors about me hitting you and the rumors turned into bold face lies and you did nothing in my defense to get them under control, I was out. My heart was gone over a year before I left the relationship. Think about it. I was so out done with you at times, that I did thinks way out of character. Namely, I almost cheated on you.Yes, and that shyt was gonna be good too. Cause for the first time in two years, I felt appreciated. She understood that a relationship is a give and take situation and not sit around and kiss your ass deal. However, she didn't understand don't call me at 3 in the morning and ask silly questions like what are you doing? She was my superhero for the moment and ultimately brought me to an understanding that you are not the one. Well, I knew that already. It just sounds so much better when it comes from the mouth of someone supportive. In the end, I'm greatful for one thing from you, like the jerhi curl you are...gone.

So Far Away

If heaven was a mile away
I would probably get lost on the way there
I would take a wrong turn ...or two...or three
Making lefts that should be right
and although they say three lefts end up right anyway
I'd still be lost because by then the sun would have gone down
and I would have to squint to see the signs
and even if I pulled over to fill up
and God told me which way to go
and that my destination was only a mile down the road
I'd probably get too cocky
gun the gas and hit 100 on the way there
passing heaven by while singing along to Tupac's "Keep Your Head Up"
and wondering why a mile and Heaven seems so far away.

I was feeling it, but...

Simply put. I was feeling that Cassidy song "I'm a hustla" when it first came out. Of course me being me, I didn't listen to it all the way through or I blanked out when my phone rang. But unlike everything I was feeling this the first time I heard it. Usually I don't like many things the first time they are introduced to me. That includes people. So so sad...Anyway, I was like okay Swiss Beatz brought it hard on this one. Then last week the video came on MTVU and I gave it another go. And once I again I was feeling it...BUT...this negro says in a line "I'm the best thing since BIG died." Whoa.

(flag on the play! Offical turns on microphone.)

-We have illegal Biggie reference on a hot track.
-We have trying to be hard after doing love songs with R. Kelly
-a wack ass remix to a Jay-Z joint.
-and we have not knowing your place in the game.
-Thats 15 yards and loss of down on the play.

Best thing since BIG died? Quick list:
Rappers better than Cassidy since BIG died...
Jadakiss
The entire ROC family
Lil' Wayne
Ludacris
Trickdaddy
The entire G-Unit
Nelly
Eminem
Murphy Lee
Juvenille
Styles P
2 of those cats from making the band 2
Outkast
do I need to go any further?

Get it together play boy! I was feeling until then. No platinum records, no major air play, no grammies. Hell, not even a Source award. I hope your next single is banking cause you killed this one for me.

What does you d.o.b. say about you?

Your Birthdate: April 1

Your birthday suggests that are executive ability and leadership qualities in your makeup.A birthday on day 1 of any month gives a measure of will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.You may be sensitive, but your feelings stay rather repressed.

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